The house of my heart

my figurative second home, college

coming home from college!

I visit you at dawn,
As dusk runs in,
I traveled back pass the dark,
Heading back to the nest.

I love the place where I came to see you,
Time and whereabouts you took ripped away,
Pleasure was all that consumed me,
A fountain of love was all i had.

Knowledge and mystery came pouring in,
Trying to scoop up everything i could,
Filling up the emptiness in mind,
Because of you MY SECOND HOME

Vanessa Carlton - A Thousand Miles

p/s This song came to my mind when I first entered Taylor's Lakeside campus

The prettiest little things in life!

Live life to the fullest while in college

Gaining sweet college memories in life

Friends in college are like never ending strings

Aim HIGH, Sky HIGH!

Being ecstatic over college! Who wouldn't feel that way right? Maybe if you are just paranoid. I'm just saying. NOT directing to anyone in particular. Having a blast in my college life so far in the Taylors Lakeside campus. This place in particular will be a place where i will remember most. A piece of a memory will i keep in my heart. My heart is a house. Things come and go but the ONE stays the same. In college, i made so many new friends. Taylors Lakeside campus is the best place i thought. After college, we always "chill" at ASIA CAFE! Somehow, i feel that the people in the Taylors Lakeside campus are really supportive. We care for one another in ways that can't be explain. We are just born with that instinct. Like a protective eagle that looks after

it's eggs until it's chicks hatchets. A maternal instinct is thus truly can be compared to the caring instinct that we have in our hearts. We are born with it. We display it. Even though Our naked eyes can't see it, others can see it. Even the smartest man on earth will also can't explain why? only god knows.

This will be a shout out to Rachel Abraham. Just the other day, i was down to some silly reason. It haunted me for years. This was how it goes...

Rach: "Hey Jess... Are you okay? I mean like seriously? You can tell me anything? I know that you are NOT okay "

**********she said it with mush care and sincerity*************** (i hope so!)

Hence, i told her my story and she gave me some advices. I miss those days in school where you can pour out all your feelings to especially our best friends and girlfriends for sure. I thought that it was impossible for me to find that "one." Well, maybe I have found it. I was glad. Having people in college that we can rely on is thus a great gift. Friends come and go BUT the true ones stays. Building up that foundation of trust in a friend is a MUST. It's not what you can make of it but what you can bring to the table. Friends overlook our flaws and they try to bring the best in us. Why not try and start to make friends is Taylors lakeside campus. Not just one but a dozen. WELL, why say so?

No one appreciates what is in store front of them. They just take everything for granted. What if time had ran out for you? Have you ever thought of that? What you wanted to do? Any regrets in life? Take every opportunity. Live life to the fullest. We only have one chance to live. Why waste it? Take a chance in life. Don't be afraid. Face your fears. If you have been afraid to start college. Well. Congratulations to you! YOU ARE IN COLLEGE NOW. Take one step at a time. Then continue onwards.

In connection with that statement, why not start keeping and recording wonderful memories while in college. In Taylors lakeside, with a blink of an eye, we won't be in college anymore. We are just speck of dust, trying to live a life BUT not wondering about the future and what we are made of! We are not born to this world and die just like that. Just i have said, One chance to live, One chance to make the BEST of it. Not just the minimum level but to our very best. With much sweat and blood, the effort we put, succeed and making our way in and out of college. We are then making a big step in life. Taylors Lakeside campus is thus the place where we ought to go. Leaving our mark there and moving ahead. "When a tiger dies, it will never loses it's stripes, When a man dies, he will never lose (WHAT?) guess yourself?" Think this phrase out and you will learn the true meaning behind it!

Hence, while I'm still in Taylors lakeside with a place with full of bliss and wonder, i want to treasure every moment that i will encounter when i am Taylors lakeside. No one will know what we will encounter right? It will just happen in front of our very eyes. Rather than being such a pessimist, I want to keep in mind of all the optimistic things that i want to have in my life. A place that i can look back next time in my golden age. Even though this may sound cheesy, trust me! I will never ever will regret with what i have said. Taylors Lakeside campus will always have a place in my heart. The prettiest things in life are the hardest to get rid of!

''One step at a time,

There's no need to rush,

It's like learning to fly,

Or falling in love,

It's going to happen,

If we find the reason WHY,

ONE STEP AT A TIME!"

~by Jordin Sparks.

''Sooner or later, those who win are those who think they can'' by Richard Bach

The grass is always greener on the other side

stepping in to college

taylors lakeside campus #1

taylors lakeside #2

I always thought that college was just a mere place where we go and come back during our schooling days.
"Isn't it amazing that you are going to college soon?" that what's everyone was when everyone eager to go to after completing our high school. Well, everyone thought that college life was better and would give us more freedom beyond our expectation. SADLY, all of these notations are beyond false. It's rubbish in a matter of fact. I never knew that stepping in to college was a big step for me to take yet complicating. I had to face many obstacles and peer pressure. Anyways, i do not want to filled you up with my rants and raves BUT I'll just give you the gist of it.


While looking through the bundles of college brochures, i stumbled upon limkokwing university pamphlets. Since my cousin did went there before and she was successful in life. That confident of hers gave me the inspiration to study there as she ALWAYS entered all sorts of competitions. She was like a reflection of me, a competitor. Maybe the lecturers have not seen that side of me while i always put on a clog of another person. In order that no one knew what had been instilled inside me, the fire of a fighting spirit. Achieving all my goals in life. For example, becoming an advertiser or a broadcaster. Who knows? It only depends one's life and base on one's decision, YES me!



Coming back to that pamphlets that is stumbled upon, soon enough. Somehow, the banners that i always see while on the road captivated my attention. YES, true enough, it was the TAYLORS LAKESIDE ADVERTISEMENT. The view and the scenery of the place was what everyone dreamt of. I loved the place, another bonus, the education was said to be good as there were many praises directed to that particular place and lecturers. Having such a scattered brain, i couldn't make up my mind where to go at first. Hence, I decided to go to limkokwing university. That place blew me away. It was big, in a middle of nowhere, extremely god gifted looks all around, the building was covered mostly in black. Well, u may assume that this place was like a funeral parlour BUT to me, it was like a haven, black was my favourite colour. Hence, I went and registered there surprisingly.



Well, now u may wonder why I am in Taylors Lakeside University College anyways! I'm sure you do since I've been praising limkokwing university at the beginning. This is how the story goes. After registering to that 'particular' university, i had many bad reviews even though there were good reviews to. In general, the cons ALWAYS AND WILL outweigh the pros. Even though I wished that it was the other way round, that is life! isn't it? I'm not trying to bad mouth about that unversity ok. Don't get me wrong. I might continue my masters there if time allows.





From the previous paragraph at the latter part, i said that the banner that was hanged by the roadside REALLY did captivated me. I was appalled by the many hectares of land, the tall buildings, the facility they had to offer and so. At first, i thought that MY CURRENT university college at first was some sort of a resort. BUT now, that perception of mine had changed 360 degrees completely. Hands down!



*******along the way, i decided to go to taylors due to unforeseen occurrence*********



Back to where we left, yes. It was like a luxurious dungeon, a big educational building that keeps students in a temporary prison BUT the teachings there are superb, beyond words. Till now, i can still recall what my lecturer has taught me till now! Oh yeah.. There's a lake, a grass bed that looks like a chess board, a platform which looks like a dock. Figuratively speaking, it was actually a good prison where they keep students and mould them in to a perfect human being!



Even the grass is always greener on the other side, but there is always it's disadvantages. THE TAYLOR'S BUS is killing me! even though i take the first bus or so, i always end up late in college or exactly on time! I despise being late as punctuality is my mine priority. This service didn't do much well with me, but with no choice ahead. I had to stick with the shuttle bus and be grateful for what they had to offer! since i do not want to travel on foot. NO WAY. Not in a million years. Even a stack of cash will not able to persuade me to walk. BUT the best thing is, all of my lecturers are such a wonder. They are awesome in a way that they are flexible and i ALWAYS have to explain why I am late like a broken record

"Sorry teacher I'm late (yes, i prefer calling them teacher than being formal) the Taylors bus LA!" that is what i always whined about. Even though I'm early, somehow I'll end up late in college. Such a piste



Moving away from such pandemic issues, grrr.... Taylors college do have their advantages to! I'm not a pessimist for a start. Well, they offer great accommodation, a place to lounge, a four-storey library, a lot of clubs and activities and many more. Such offers are such great benefits, you know why? Rather than being stuck with the stacks and stacks of books, being buried alive in it without enjoying one's life, her teenage life! yes, my life with all the stress. Students can release their stress by enjoying themselves in such clubs and etc. As we have heard many times repeatedly, "All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy" For my case, "All work and no play makes Jesseca wants to suicide" You know why! Research has shown that almost 70% of college students suicide or get depressed due to extreme pressures. Well, since I've been to Taylors Lakeside till now, as I have said, the Lecturers are the best, they won't put the pressure on us but gave us some advice and tell us the consequences that we might face with any decision we make. It is up to us, either we want to build ourselves up or just deteriorate ourselves.



Promoting ourselves to a working class rather than being demoted in to such a pest, we MUST do our best in whatever we do. We cannot depend on our breadwinner in the long run somehow. We don't want to burden them. Hurt their feelings and so on. BUT, we want to make them proud, lift their heads high up, make their heart glad, repay their gratitude, all the sacrifices they made for us even though we cannot see with our naked eyes, it will be all worth it. YES, I was mentioning about our parents and guardian. The people that surrounds us will be filled with joy when we succeed to. YES, i have no regrets studying in taylors lakeside campus. It is the best. The people are friendly, the lecturers are nice, the education there is good and what's more? Find out for yourself. Trust me, you will be appalled and that cheerful stream will come surging in you! Who knew that college life will be extraordinay!



TAYLORS LAKESIDE UNIVERSITY COLLEGE is the BEST EDUCATIONAL CENTRE!



"Don't be afraid to take a big step. You can't cross a chasm in small jumps." by David Llyod George

The piano of my heart

a grand piano by a sea

a grand piano in the garden

piano epic!

" Ist es whar? Ist es whar? daR du stets dort in dem Laub-gang an der...." as the songstress sang on while the concerto goes. Fingers bended, mind relaxed, phalanges on placed, a key was played, a symphony of sounds emerged.

The girl wooed the crowd. Her mind spins wildly. Her eyes darting around the keys. Every corner she touched. Her body swayed as the music flowed. Her eyes shut! Tears of joy i presume filled her. The spirit in her merrily celebrated. Satisfaction overwhelmed her. No trace of emotion could be seen. As the last note ended, her eyes opened.

"Stop dreaming and play properly!" a voice out of no where shot out.

I came back to reality

*** coming back to reality***

Great! that's what I thought for my teacher interrupted me. She's a maestro at heart. A cold clothe she displayed but deep down within her, she was the best. One in million woman where everyone wanted. She hopes for the best in others, giving inspiration and hardcore training was what she did best. Yes! She was my piano teacher.

I grew up with her, trying to please her, a smile only filled her impassive face i knew. Never whined if she corrected me because she knows what's best for me. The traces of veins could be seen visibly. All the tender years of age she worked hard until she got where she wanted. I said to myself. "Practice Makes Perfect!" Well, how can anyone say that a student will become slow at at achieving his goals if he is not for wrong-doings. The feign concept of sparing a rod and not correcting his ways turn back the responsibility of disciplining a student. Moreover, everyone should remember that we no longer live in a barbaric world where meager is at premium and realize that a student will become lazy if the teacher gave in to his every whim and fancy. Consequently, never guiding a student is only a cover up for the teacher's lacking in disciplining skills. Since there are indeed many ways to mould a student, my teacher was the second best after my mum. She taught with kindness and patient with a certain level degree of strictness. there was a certain balance when being nice and strict.

"To play well is not being gifted. Even though you were not born with a gifted hands! At least, make an effort to inspire others with this talent that you build up!" she advised me.

-this was actually told to me a few years back.

Hearing those words build me up. Every wise sayings that are poured out to me always are inculcated in my heart. Hence, these holidays, I practiced my piano skill more vigilantly so that I will be sharper. Mould the world with my music if I could. If i had the ability to, I want to inspire others to take up music as I did. I communicate with my music. I tell a story. Everything I did, I became more n depth with my music. Everyday of my miserable life, only the piano could lift my spirit up with the sound that it produces. My holidays will be a delightful one as i was eager to improve my skills, learn new song and among others. I hope that I will be able to perform my music and boast my skills in pride. Never looking back, only when i first started. With all the struggles and tears that i went through and had to cope, I am blessed that I had these hands, a perfect hands to play the piano. As Helen Keller once said, "For as you dream, you shall become"

My holidays will be filled with harmony. A music that changes moods. My mood in particular. To get to my destination figuratively. The goals I want to achieve in life. A heart and soul, sharing my music with other. Filling up my sad days and good days. Also, my upcoming days. Holidays is always the best time for me to brush up my music. A symphony of sounds, a concerto, or just a simple tune can just motivate me to do anything in my everyday life. I cannot imagine myself during holidays without my piano, even i lifetime. That will definitely be the worst torture that I will come to face. Rare of sight, rare in mind I never assume that piano is just a mere instrument. It's my life. My holidays will be and always be a musical one. No matter what the world is heading to right now, shopping at a mall, watching the television, loitering at the "mamak" stalls, you can always find me at the back of the piano. Fingers slididng and gilddding across the streams of keys.

Till my the end of my holidays, I will take every opportunity to play a concerto at the very least. Not knowing when I won't be able to lend a hand on my beloved statue childlike instrument, yes my piano! I will play non-stop but not fanatically.

This is how my journey will be. A premonition of the future. My holidays. A musical holiday.

"I want to sing like the birds sing, not worrying about who hears or what they think" by Rumi

Green Valley of Mine

the green grass of hope

the grass bed of peace and security

Such green seas of mine,
Thou art I longed for you,

Swimming through the seas of green,

Swooning over your tranquility.

How I longed to flow with the current,

As my mind drift away in to the seas of wonders,

Lost in mind ans soul,

My holiday had yet to begun.

Bebot - Black Eyed Peas

p/s This song reminds me of THE PHILIPPINES

=)

Reminices!

the hills and mountains

the blues skies

the man ploughing the field

"I wish that I'll come back here someday." i wondered. What will it be?

Well, after a heavy heart leaving The Philippines, the whirring sound of the fan could be heard, and the polluted air with buildings surrounding the whole neighbourhood rather than the animals strut their voices in the morning, and the greenery that filled the land, I draw a blank face. Being nonchalant of the sedentary lifestyle in the workplace or school, everything seems to be a monotonous chores rather than an interesting one. All work and no play makes Jack i dull boy

One thing for sure, without a doubt, I was overwhelm with the different lifestyle that the world has to offer. I was transfixed at first when I first experience the countryside lifestyle. Can you imagine yourself waking up in the morning with a clean fresh air that fills your lungs, the rooster calls to their master, villagers getting ready to plough the field and among others? By just enjoying the scenic view like the blue sky and the sparkling countless ofstars and the bright yellow moon at night, those "glistening pearls" just betrayed me as the beauty of nature just seized me. With a twinkle in my eyes, I could just sit all day and appreciating every single minute. Clutching to the fact that I have to live in the city and breathe such polluted air in the garden, I wished that I was in The Philippines now. It seems that no one knew what filled my life. My everyday life. All they could care about was themselves. In comparison, the villagers "the uncivilised" people as people referred them in general. That did not hindered from having a happy even with few material things. I for once cannot live without gadgets and instruments. For them, having three times a meal per day was already sufficient for them. It hit me hard. It made me realised that money is not everything. It can't buy happiness. Once, a wise one threw me a question, "If for example, a very rich man was to fall sick, do you think his wealth can make him healthy again?"
I paused for a second. The answer is obviously NO! It then occurred to me that WEALTH cannot buy HEALTH. Living a simple healthy life was what they aimed for in a very scenic and beautiful surrounding. I envy them greatly. ALL THAT GLITTERS IS NOT GOLD. It struck me hard in the head.
Then, the wise one said, "Money is NOT everything. I am happy that I am able to live and enjoy my life without worrying like you people in the city. I don't know why people like you chase after money and materialistic things. It is like striving after wind. It is temporary. It will not last forever and you will not bring your own sweat to your grave isn't it?"
"Sit here. Enjoy the mother nature as long as you can. You will never know when your time is up. The most rewarding gift that you receive is NOT money BUT mother nature." he ended

By "sweeping all the negative thoughts away," the nostalgia of being in the countryside for once is what i wished for a day. Enjoying every single secong relentlessly. With this gullible mind of mine, I did not want to be conspicuous lamenting of the past, it would be weird while I'm alone. Sometimes, I have this premonition of impending disaster that everything will go wrong UNTIL......

my mind drift away in to the countryside, a hill, a blue sea, a wind turbine. Who will ever resist such temptations of being in a peaceful place?

*knock knock* my door goes..



"Here comes my mum AGAIN!" i thought to myself



"WAKE UP!!!!!!!" my mum roared like lion...



Gahhhhhhhh.. another day goes by, nothing to do, wished i could go back to the past where i could just wake up automatically in the countryside, yes. It's The Philippines.



****Re-enact the conversation this morning*****



"Hmmhpp. No classes this morning? Got any homework? If no, go and do your chores?" my mum said



"Yeah! NO. NO. NO. LEAVE ME ALONEEEEE!" i moaned



"Get your bumps off the bed before I get MAD!" my demanded. By stressing the word "MAD"



gahhhhhhhhhhh... so yes! I got up and obeyed every single word. How I wish that I could enjoy my life in The Philippines now.. Running down the hill, walking by the beach, plucking fruits from the vineyard and among others. As always, reminiscing about how I wanted for my holiday is all I could do. Unless if a miracle was blessed upon me, YES! Get me out from this misery of life.

Groans of whining echoed my head. I had to go through another boring day relentlessly. Although I had not eaten my breakfast, I only gulped down mouth full of Milo. Walking away from the kitchen, I kept wishing and wishing that my day will be filled with joy. Just like a withered leaf flowing away with the current of a river, I swayed like that leaf. With no direction, I was in bore doom. If only I had classes on that day I thought. People may think that I'm a bit mad for wanting something that people do not want to, I envy the school children that walked pass by my house this morning. Carrying a bag, dressed up for the day, their lunchboxes held in their hands, I wished that I could enjoy my day. The countryside in The Philippines still weighs out my current life. Reminiscing the place where i longed for and the wise old man sayings was all i could think about. It's not about how much you have BUT how much you have to offer!

With all of these non-stop complaints.

"Live life to the fullest" I thought to myself. How nice it would be If I had one day, a holiday, a never ending day. OUT from the city life.

"All we need to make us happy is something to be enthusiastic about." by Charles Kingsley

We Can Go Anywhere-Jesse McCartney

p/s this song crossed my mind thinking about the holidays

An inspiration of hope

At the beginning by Anastasia

We were stranger

Starting out on a journey

Never dreaming

What we'd have go through

Now here we are

And I'm suddenly standing

At the beginning with you

No one told me

I was going to find you

Unexpected

What you did to my heart

When I lost hope

You were there to remind me

This is the start

Life is road

And i want to keep going

Love is a river

I wanna keep flowing

Life is road

Now and forever

Wonderful journey

I'll be there

When the world's stop turning

I'll be there

When the storm is through

In the end I wanna be standing

At the beginning with you

We were strangers

On a crazy adventure

Never dreaming

How our dreams would come true

Now here we stand

Unafraid of the future

At the beginning with you

Life is road

And i want to keep going

Love is like a river

I wanna keep flowing

Life is like a road

Now and forever

Wonderful journey

I'll be there

When the world's stop turning

I'll be there

When the storm is through

In the end I wanna be standing

At the beginning with you

I knew there was somebody somewhere

Like me alone in the dark

Now i know my dream will live on

I've been waiting so long

Nothings gonna tear us apart

Life is like a road

And i want to keep going

Love is like a river

I wanna keep flowing

Life is like a road

Now and forever

Wonderful journey

I'll be there

When the world's stops turning

I'll be there

When the storm is through

In the end I wanna be standing

At the beginning with you

Life is like a road and i wanna keep goingg

Love is like a river I wanna keep going on..

Starting out on a journey

Life is like a road and i wanna keep going

Love is like a river I wanna keep flowing

In the end I wanna be standing

At the beginning with you

Kris Allen - Live Like We're Dying Official Video [HQ]

p/s The lyrics is inspirational

Live life to the FULLEST

how music let's me see a in a difeerent perspective

music is like never ending pictures that conveys a message

music is clingy that will get you hooked on it

You came in to my life,
You never did once leave me,
I never complained,
You made my life a better place.

You mould me beautifully,
You taught me things that I've never known,
I appreciated every second with you,
Though I'll age and you'll never die.

Thanks for all the things you taught,
Thanks for the life you have given me,
Thanks for opening my eyes and see the colour of lights,
Thanks to music.

Music for life

Music. Rock, Pop, House, Dance, Jazz, Classical, Oldies, Romantic. Is that all it is? What is music? Many people only regard it as only songs. What about the sounds around us? Aren't they also music to our ears? Maybe not. Let me prove you wrong. Why? Let's see.

The sound of nature, the waves hitting against the rocks, the birds chirping on a tree and among others. YOU classify them as sounds or noise, but to the minority of people, they are regard as music. Even the sound that is produced from an instrument; regardless of anything. For example, a piano or a violin. Every sound that is produced by such an instrument will in turn transform in to a piece of music. A pleasure to the ear, the heart, the soul and the mind

Music reaches to the very deep things until the human soul. It touches our heart. It can break us or make us. It depends how we put it in a perspective. The music that we hear, scientist nor musicologist can explain why music is so appealing to the ear. How gracious it is to have music in our life and able to experience it. Like "ringing bells in the ear," it can cut through us deeply. Music can motivate us in our life. Music can influence us greatly. Music can make us get up and sing. Music can make us dance. Music can make us do anything that a person can never imagine in their life before.

Music changed my life. I use to regard it as only entertainment to the ear or to release BUT when i got in depth of music and gained the knowledge of it, i learned to live that music can affect a person as a whole and not just live the visibility of it. IT changed me, it took charged of me. I live for music. PAIN, HURT, ANGER, JOY, MYSTERIOUS, LOVE. Those emotions i could express them in my music. I wept, i smiled, i laughed as I played the piano. YES. I was influenced by the magic of piano. My passion for piano grew deeply every time a note is being played. IT WAS A WHOLE NEW BEGINNING OF MY LIFE. I never imagined that my life was basically like a musical piece. You start the journey and you end it. In comparison, when you start a piece, you have to end it or it will be hanging without any sense of direction. As the music proceeds, so is the mood, it doesn't stop until you reach the last phrase. I learned the piano at a very tender young age. I did not stop since then. At first, I just learned for the sake of it. Just to please my parents BUT as time proceeded and i gotten more matured, music was not a mere profession to please my parents but to please myself to. I got to see the true colours of music. In time, i spend most of my time on it and never did once I gave up at some point when I learned to experience the value of music. Priceless is the word that is much appropriate.

As eccentric as it sounds, I began to listen to orchestral songs, watch the Philharmonic orchestral and especially reading about the music prodigies such as Mozart. Everyone should experience NOT ONLY radio streams songs but also the golden age songs. It has more meaning and it portrays more values. When we see their struggles and painful history, this will help us to appreciate music even more. Relish every moment in life. A life worth living. Don't waste it by closing our ears.

Just like how i live for music, in comparison, that is how i live for music. It doesn't stop at any point, but it will mould us and evolve every second.

"Look at everything as though you were seeing it either for the first or last time. Then your time on earth will be filled with glory" by Betty Smith

POEM: a new life

Don't Look Back

A beginning of a new life,
A brand new day,
A fresh new start,
A stepping stone towards hope

Keeping an open mind,
Collecting experiences that we face,
Exploring the world in a different perspective,
A new life has been born.

Do not halter nor falter,
A brand new journey has just begun,
Seizing every opportunity that we can get,
Grasp hold of it and never let go.

More To LIFE by Stacie Orrico

p/s The lyrics is meaningful =)

A new life like a butterfly

coming to a new place

meeting new friends

settling down for a knowlegde

March 29th 2007, possibly it could be said as one of the most exciting and horrific days in my life. However, for 13 years of attending institutionalized education environment, I have become used to surrounding myself with people who are also known as my friends. Having the inkling of being in a new place with new people in a new surrounding scared me to death since I have not been exposed to such an environment before like my high school days. This whole lot of experience turned out to be the complete contrast to what I had envisioned during my high school of leading up to this horrific anxiety-filled affair so it is official now then never. I was not in high school anymore or any part of it as i kind of missed it. I could not imagine myself walking down the halls of new school; college.
My college. It sounded funny and weird to me as I was not accustomed in saying that before or ever did i imagined myself saying that. Though to me it really was something of which to regard highly and not lightly. Although, that's since high school, I have been eager in enrolling to college and wanting to be in college so bad and a college student; a serious studious student who is able to decide and comprehend in making her decision in her life and most importantly, her future. Yes, my future. Being the only child has it's pros and cons BUT the cons always weights out the pros. My parents had a lot of expectations of me as I was the only one who is actually able to "see the light" and walk through the doors of a higher education facility which is college. That triumph of victory within itself was short-lived as the pressure of it overpowered it.
Pondering on it, I readied everything for my up and coming classes and my orientation obviously. Enrolling in to college was actually a big deal and a big step for me. As soon as I entered the college campus at Petaling Jaya, the high school atmosphere vanished in to thin air and a serious period of my life began which i fear the most. Premature feelings of wanting to shoot my way in succeeding fast in life had to be put away.
My first day at taylors which signified the beginning of my career pathway and goals in life, the first day of the semester as I viewed it. The receipt for my tuition fee, some documents and my class schedule were held tightly in one hand and the empty "baggage" that was supposed to be filled with tons of books as I viewed it. I know that I've been making the whole college life setting seem more that what it really was and ought to be, I know it was a bit eccentric that I was flipping through all the booklet and leaflet that the seniors hand out to me, it made my thought of my new and questionable journey in life quite stimulating and productive at some point. I got in to a new educational building; my college, exposed to a different style of learning environment, and meeting new people. It was surely a day full of new and awkward experience that I am going to encounter as i set out to fulfill my dreams and goals in college and that is to succeed in life. In comparison, my journey is like a butterfly that emerge from it's cocoon and starting a brand new journey.

"what you are afraid to do is a clear indicator of the next thing you need to do" by Anthony Robbins