Monday, April 19, 2010

The piano of my heart

a grand piano by a sea
a grand piano in the garden

piano epic!


" Ist es whar? Ist es whar? daR du stets dort in dem Laub-gang an der...." as the songstress sang on while the concerto goes. Fingers bended, mind relaxed, phalanges on placed, a key was played, a symphony of sounds emerged.

The girl wooed the crowd. Her mind spins wildly. Her eyes darting around the keys. Every corner she touched. Her body swayed as the music flowed. Her eyes shut! Tears of joy i presume filled her. The spirit in her merrily celebrated. Satisfaction overwhelmed her. No trace of emotion could be seen. As the last note ended, her eyes opened.

"Stop dreaming and play properly!" a voice out of no where shot out.

I came back to reality

*** coming back to reality***

Great! that's what I thought for my teacher interrupted me. She's a maestro at heart. A cold clothe she displayed but deep down within her, she was the best. One in million woman where everyone wanted. She hopes for the best in others, giving inspiration and hardcore training was what she did best. Yes! She was my piano teacher.

I grew up with her, trying to please her, a smile only filled her impassive face i knew. Never whined if she corrected me because she knows what's best for me. The traces of veins could be seen visibly. All the tender years of age she worked hard until she got where she wanted. I said to myself. "Practice Makes Perfect!" Well, how can anyone say that a student will become slow at at achieving his goals if he is not for wrong-doings. The feign concept of sparing a rod and not correcting his ways turn back the responsibility of disciplining a student. Moreover, everyone should remember that we no longer live in a barbaric world where meager is at premium and realize that a student will become lazy if the teacher gave in to his every whim and fancy. Consequently, never guiding a student is only a cover up for the teacher's lacking in disciplining skills. Since there are indeed many ways to mould a student, my teacher was the second best after my mum. She taught with kindness and patient with a certain level degree of strictness. there was a certain balance when being nice and strict.

"To play well is not being gifted. Even though you were not born with a gifted hands! At least, make an effort to inspire others with this talent that you build up!" she advised me.

-this was actually told to me a few years back.

Hearing those words build me up. Every wise sayings that are poured out to me always are inculcated in my heart. Hence, these holidays, I practiced my piano skill more vigilantly so that I will be sharper. Mould the world with my music if I could. If i had the ability to, I want to inspire others to take up music as I did. I communicate with my music. I tell a story. Everything I did, I became more n depth with my music. Everyday of my miserable life, only the piano could lift my spirit up with the sound that it produces. My holidays will be a delightful one as i was eager to improve my skills, learn new song and among others. I hope that I will be able to perform my music and boast my skills in pride. Never looking back, only when i first started. With all the struggles and tears that i went through and had to cope, I am blessed that I had these hands, a perfect hands to play the piano. As Helen Keller once said, "For as you dream, you shall become"

My holidays will be filled with harmony. A music that changes moods. My mood in particular. To get to my destination figuratively. The goals I want to achieve in life. A heart and soul, sharing my music with other. Filling up my sad days and good days. Also, my upcoming days. Holidays is always the best time for me to brush up my music. A symphony of sounds, a concerto, or just a simple tune can just motivate me to do anything in my everyday life. I cannot imagine myself during holidays without my piano, even i lifetime. That will definitely be the worst torture that I will come to face. Rare of sight, rare in mind I never assume that piano is just a mere instrument. It's my life. My holidays will be and always be a musical one. No matter what the world is heading to right now, shopping at a mall, watching the television, loitering at the "mamak" stalls, you can always find me at the back of the piano. Fingers slididng and gilddding across the streams of keys.

Till my the end of my holidays, I will take every opportunity to play a concerto at the very least. Not knowing when I won't be able to lend a hand on my beloved statue childlike instrument, yes my piano! I will play non-stop but not fanatically.

This is how my journey will be. A premonition of the future. My holidays. A musical holiday.







"I want to sing like the birds sing, not worrying about who hears or what they think" by Rumi

Green Valley of Mine

the green grass of hope
the grass bed of peace and security

Such green seas of mine,
Thou art I longed for you,
Swimming through the seas of green,
Swooning over your tranquility.

How I longed to flow with the current,
As my mind drift away in to the seas of wonders,
Lost in mind ans soul,
My holiday had yet to begun.

Bebot - Black Eyed Peas




p/s This song reminds me of THE PHILIPPINES

=)

Reminices!

the hills and mountains
the blues skies
the man ploughing the field


"I wish that I'll come back here someday." i wondered. What will it be?

Well, after a heavy heart leaving The Philippines, the whirring sound of the fan could be heard, and the polluted air with buildings surrounding the whole neighbourhood rather than the animals strut their voices in the morning, and the greenery that filled the land, I draw a blank face. Being nonchalant of the sedentary lifestyle in the workplace or school, everything seems to be a monotonous chores rather than an interesting one. All work and no play makes Jack i dull boy

One thing for sure, without a doubt, I was overwhelm with the different lifestyle that the world has to offer. I was transfixed at first when I first experience the countryside lifestyle. Can you imagine yourself waking up in the morning with a clean fresh air that fills your lungs, the rooster calls to their master, villagers getting ready to plough the field and among others? By just enjoying the scenic view like the blue sky and the sparkling countless ofstars and the bright yellow moon at night, those "glistening pearls" just betrayed me as the beauty of nature just seized me. With a twinkle in my eyes, I could just sit all day and appreciating every single minute. Clutching to the fact that I have to live in the city and breathe such polluted air in the garden, I wished that I was in The Philippines now. It seems that no one knew what filled my life. My everyday life. All they could care about was themselves. In comparison, the villagers "the uncivilised" people as people referred them in general. That did not hindered from having a happy even with few material things. I for once cannot live without gadgets and instruments. For them, having three times a meal per day was already sufficient for them. It hit me hard. It made me realised that money is not everything. It can't buy happiness. Once, a wise one threw me a question, "If for example, a very rich man was to fall sick, do you think his wealth can make him healthy again?"
I paused for a second. The answer is obviously NO! It then occurred to me that WEALTH cannot buy HEALTH. Living a simple healthy life was what they aimed for in a very scenic and beautiful surrounding. I envy them greatly. ALL THAT GLITTERS IS NOT GOLD. It struck me hard in the head.
Then, the wise one said, "Money is NOT everything. I am happy that I am able to live and enjoy my life without worrying like you people in the city. I don't know why people like you chase after money and materialistic things. It is like striving after wind. It is temporary. It will not last forever and you will not bring your own sweat to your grave isn't it?"
"Sit here. Enjoy the mother nature as long as you can. You will never know when your time is up. The most rewarding gift that you receive is NOT money BUT mother nature." he ended

By "sweeping all the negative thoughts away," the nostalgia of being in the countryside for once is what i wished for a day. Enjoying every single secong relentlessly. With this gullible mind of mine, I did not want to be conspicuouText Colors lamenting of the past, it would be weird while I'm alone. Sometimes, I have this premonition of impending disaster that everything will go wrong UNTIL......

my mind drift away in to the countryside, a hill, a blue sea, a wind turbine. Who will ever resist such temptations of being in a peaceful place?

*knock knock* my door goes..



"Here comes my mum AGAIN!" i thought to myself



"WAKE UP!!!!!!!" my mum roared like lion...



Gahhhhhhhh.. another day goes by, nothing to do, wished i could go back to the past where i could just wake up automatically in the countryside, yes. It's The Philippines.



****Re-enact the conversation this morning*****



"Hmmhpp. No classes this morning? Got any homework? If no, go and do your chores?" my mum said



"Yeah! NO. NO. NO. LEAVE ME ALONEEEEE!" i moaned



"Get your bumps off the bed before I get MAD!" my demanded. By stressing the word "MAD"



gahhhhhhhhhhh... so yes! I got up and obeyed every single word. How I wish that I could enjoy my life in The Philippines now.. Running down the hill, walking by the beach, plucking fruits from the vineyard and among others. As always, reminiscing about how I wanted for my holiday is all I could do. Unless if a miracle was blessed upon me, YES! Get me out from this misery of life.

Groans of whining echoed my head. I had to go through another boring day relentlessly. Although I had not eaten my breakfast, I only gulped down mouth full of Milo. Walking away from the kitchen, I kept wishing and wishing that my day will be filled with joy. Just like a withered leaf flowing away with the current of a river, I swayed like that leaf. With no direction, I was in bore doom. If only I had classes on that day I thought. People may think that I'm a bit mad for wanting something that people do not want to, I envy the school children that walked pass by my house this morning. Carrying a bag, dressed up for the day, their lunchboxes held in their hands, I wished that I could enjoy my day. The countryside in The Philippines still weighs out my current life. Reminiscing the place where i longed for and the wise old man sayings was all i could think about. It's not about how much you have BUT how much you have to offer!

With all of these non-stop complaints.

"Live life to the fullest" I thought to myself. How nice it would be If I had one day, a holiday, a never ending day. OUT from the city life.

"All we need to make us happy is something to be enthusiastic about." by Charles Kingsley


Sunday, April 18, 2010

We Can Go Anywhere-Jesse McCartney

p/s this song crossed my mind thinking about the holidays